Why I Needed an iPod

Okay. So there wasn't a real need, but there were some compelling reasons why the husband picked that as my birthday gift. I'll explain.

Lately the child has several good days and then picks a day to vocalize how upset he is with the world. I am reading The Wonder Weeks and he pretty much is fussy around the time he goes through one of these weeks. (This book makes me feel better that my child is indeed normal). Even though it is normal it still wears me down to tears by the end of a screaming day. The husband thought if I had headphones and my choice of videos and music it would help block out some of the screams and calm me down.

I got a chance to use it the day after my birthday. The child was so good on my day that he decided to do a 180 the next day. He got up early and screamed. He didn't go down for a nap so I took him to the zoo with a friend. As soon as my friend left and I went to the bathroom the screaming resumed. He then screamed while I held him, slept in my arms for 30 minutes, screamed waking up, ate, played and then screamed when he was bored, ate, screamed himself for a 20 minute nap, and then finally the husband came home. The iPod helped. Really it did.

Now, the screaming isn't the only reason that the iPod was desperately needed. Lately I have been feeling spiritually starved. I don't have a lot of time to study and get an alone quiet time with a high=maintenance, but incredibly gifted and cute baby. We have visited several churches where we love the service, and the sermons are biblical, but not very "meaty". I feel hungry when I leave. In fact I feel like standing up and screaming........"Don't you know how to teach and feed your flock?" (Don't worry, I don't really do this, I just think it). Every church we go to I realize that I am just missing a certain pastor that was such a good teacher that no one can measure up to how much he gave to me. Today, my husband got online to our former church where this particular pastor is the teacher and downloaded several sermon series for me. Now while I am nursing the baby I can listen and feel like I am getting spiritual food at the same time.

I feel more filled already. Just having someone knowing me so well to take care of me is nice. I shouldn't complain; I am blessed.